Years before, I was
like most of the little girls who love to dream about our prince charming. That’s
the reason I love to sleep. When I fall asleep, I can get to dream about my
prince charming and we could stay sweet forever. That’s break my heart every
time I was waked by my alarm clock. Haha…
Once upon the time, I
felt in love with some nice charming guys like the teenage girl do. The guys
treated me so well like a sister and helplessly I fall in love with them. During
the period of time, there were a few “little boy” stalking me too. I truly
thank God for them and their love for me. Yet, I know they were not the man I
am looking for.
Deep in my memories, I do
cry so many times in the church for a guy when the relationship was broken down.
I was praying and even try to fast and pray for it. God do restore our
relationship at last, but I still not able to have a healthy boy girl
relationship with the guy I loved. That’s brought out my low self-esteem and I keep
wondering how God can bless me with a good life partner. Our pastor even prayed
for me when I feel truly upset. I still remembered the pastor prayed for me
with a verse in 1 Corinthians 2:9, "Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, Nor
have entered into the heart of man The things which God has prepared for those
who love Him." I keep this verse with me at all times when I’m praying for my
life partner.
I do have lots of
erroneous thinking and teaching about finding my life partner from the past.
Thank be to God. One of my church sisters shared with me a 5-CD set from Ps. Joseph
Prince on “Finding your life partner”. I have a new revelation and teaching about what I should look for in finding my life partner. I no longer struggle on my own
anymore. By His grace, I am learning to be more restful in this area.
I also started to
pray and ask God to bless me a 120 folds husband after I have listened to one
of the Ps. Prince sermons preached on the restoration. I believe He
could bless me with someone better in my future. I even write it down in a
piece of “love shaped paper” every time I prayed for my life partner. I think that
shall be the best gift for him during the wedding day.
