Right Happening before 2018

Since 2016 he was back to Taiwan, we do keep contact as he might still texted me regarding the church progress. As the “matter” was happened and settled down finally, we seem lost contact with each other.

          In year 2017 while he was serving at Paris, France, he started to text me again. He told me that he might need to refer his books on 9 personalities test. I’m cracking my head to get the cheapest way to send his books back to him. The other hand, I’m worried that he will feel upset when he saw his book’s condition. When I read his books, one of the books was dropped off into pieces no matter how gentle I am trying to handle it. I do texted him and try to apologize to him personally while I found this happened. So much more, I still thinking he might not get back his book too soon as he seem not coming to Malaysia in a short time.   

      After I knew his request, I really pray hard to God for an open door. Coincidentally, he knew one of his best friends will came along from Johor to visit him. He was asking me for favor whether I was able to pass the book to his friend. I really wish I can send him, but as I know the fees which I need to send to Johor should not be cheap as well. I prayed to God again.

  God was so kind and gracious to me. I truly experience what God has place me in the right place at the right time. While chit-chatting with one of my church sisters in the church, she invited me to join them to go Johor for a piano lesson. The learning fees was not cheap, I don’t think I could afford that. At the same time I suddenly realized that the piano teacher who they were approached to was his good friend who will go to Paris to visit him. That was super amazing. I just need to pass his books to one of my church sister and ask them for a favor to pass it to their piano teacher. God just grant me a right happening when I submit to Him.

          Before I returned the book to him, I slipped in a small book mark for him as to apologize to him. I’m so scared that he might get angry even though I did told him and apologize to him when I notice that through a text message.

          After all, I just realized our love story has begun… ©©©©©

          

I didn't realize that's "him"

In year 2016, I met a man who was very talented in our church. I named him as DC. He was invited to our church to help in some areas especially in the youth and praise and worship ministry. He was a good pianist and he has assigned to teach all the pianists in our church. We started to contact each other for the piano learning sections through messenger. At the same time, our pastor highly recommended him to our church sisters who are still single as his parent wish he could get a life partner here in Malaysia. That's so embarrassing for him I feel in this special request from his parent. In this short period of time, we were hanging out together for a few times as invited by our group friends but not for the kind of match making stuff.

In that season, I was wondering what is my calling and my leader –C encourage me to seek some advises from him. I really wish to approach him. At the same time, I felt Mr. C spoke differently to me in the sense that he felt we are so much compatible. DC told them before maybe he would like to start a church in New Zealand, yet I just back from New Zealand for a short working holiday. When I noticed my church leader —C having special expectation from me to approach him, I don't feel good to get closer with him anymore.

During youth camp on 2016, there was a time I interested to know about 9 personalities tests. I was slightly disappointed that DC did not manage to share on this area during these 4 days 3 nights camp. Coincidentally, my church bro —JQ manages to get this personalities test from him. After I knew about that, I started to approach him for the test and try to look for more info on the test result. That was the time he needed to get back to Taiwan.  Finally, he decided to leave two books regarding the 9 personalities test for me through my pastor. I truly appreciate that.

            After he went back to Taiwan, we still keep contact through FB as normal connection within church brother and sister. One of our church sisters was fall in love on him so much. She keeps on suspecting we are in a relationship but in low profile. In that period of time, we were quite struggle with these issues. We did clarify with her personally through text message. I even swore to her, I was not felt in love with him. We keep denied it until the extend we decided not to have any interaction with each other publicly. It seem doesn’t work well as predicted. Due to this issue, we even have more connection with each other personally in order to discuss how we need to deal with her and even pray for her.

          Thank be to God, the “matter” was settled when I start resting and do nothing other than just praying. I thought the connection was lost too between us, when thing “matter” was settled. 

Backgroud

Years before, I was like most of the little girls who love to dream about our prince charming. That’s the reason I love to sleep. When I fall asleep, I can get to dream about my prince charming and we could stay sweet forever. That’s break my heart every time I was waked by my alarm clock. Haha…

Once upon the time, I felt in love with some nice charming guys like the teenage girl do. The guys treated me so well like a sister and helplessly I fall in love with them. During the period of time, there were a few “little boy” stalking me too. I truly thank God for them and their love for me. Yet, I know they were not the man I am looking for.

Deep in my memories, I do cry so many times in the church for a guy when the relationship was broken down. I was praying and even try to fast and pray for it. God do restore our relationship at last, but I still not able to have a healthy boy girl relationship with the guy I loved. That’s brought out my low self-esteem and I keep wondering how God can bless me with a good life partner. Our pastor even prayed for me when I feel truly upset. I still remembered the pastor prayed for me with a verse in 1 Corinthians 2:9, "Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, Nor have entered into the heart of man The things which God has prepared for those who love Him." I keep this verse with me at all times when I’m praying for my life partner. 

I do have lots of erroneous thinking and teaching about finding my life partner from the past. Thank be to God. One of my church sisters shared with me a  5-CD set from Ps. Joseph Prince on “Finding your life partner”. I have a new revelation and teaching about what I should look for in finding my life partner. I no longer struggle on my own anymore. By His grace, I am learning to be more restful in this area.

I also started to pray and ask God to bless me a 120 folds husband after I have listened to one of the Ps. Prince sermons preached on the restoration. I believe He could bless me with someone better in my future. I even write it down in a piece of “love shaped paper” every time I prayed for my life partner. I think that shall be the best gift for him during the wedding day.