I didn't realize that's "him"

In year 2016, I met a man who was very talented in our church. I named him as DC. He was invited to our church to help in some areas especially in the youth and praise and worship ministry. He was a good pianist and he has assigned to teach all the pianists in our church. We started to contact each other for the piano learning sections through messenger. At the same time, our pastor highly recommended him to our church sisters who are still single as his parent wish he could get a life partner here in Malaysia. That's so embarrassing for him I feel in this special request from his parent. In this short period of time, we were hanging out together for a few times as invited by our group friends but not for the kind of match making stuff.

In that season, I was wondering what is my calling and my leader –C encourage me to seek some advises from him. I really wish to approach him. At the same time, I felt Mr. C spoke differently to me in the sense that he felt we are so much compatible. DC told them before maybe he would like to start a church in New Zealand, yet I just back from New Zealand for a short working holiday. When I noticed my church leader —C having special expectation from me to approach him, I don't feel good to get closer with him anymore.

During youth camp on 2016, there was a time I interested to know about 9 personalities tests. I was slightly disappointed that DC did not manage to share on this area during these 4 days 3 nights camp. Coincidentally, my church bro —JQ manages to get this personalities test from him. After I knew about that, I started to approach him for the test and try to look for more info on the test result. That was the time he needed to get back to Taiwan.  Finally, he decided to leave two books regarding the 9 personalities test for me through my pastor. I truly appreciate that.

            After he went back to Taiwan, we still keep contact through FB as normal connection within church brother and sister. One of our church sisters was fall in love on him so much. She keeps on suspecting we are in a relationship but in low profile. In that period of time, we were quite struggle with these issues. We did clarify with her personally through text message. I even swore to her, I was not felt in love with him. We keep denied it until the extend we decided not to have any interaction with each other publicly. It seem doesn’t work well as predicted. Due to this issue, we even have more connection with each other personally in order to discuss how we need to deal with her and even pray for her.

          Thank be to God, the “matter” was settled when I start resting and do nothing other than just praying. I thought the connection was lost too between us, when thing “matter” was settled.